tears.pain.sweat

as i sit her and count the many times i have in fact encountered those three things i would be insane..

as the tears escape my face i start to question my ability to love contently..i began to question my inability to be subject to ones destruction...the tears are so hot with warmth and it lets me know that i am in fact alive and human..therefore that should be the indications that we as humans should not treat the next accordingly to those ways of lies and manipulations.

pain beckons at my doorstep twice a year..she brings her baggage and hastenly i open my gate and let her in..its like ive watched a soap opera of my life and she fits the script..its liike the director purposely put pain in the script to watch it develop in to more..pain knows the hold she has on individuals..she comes in and makes you her hostage..and in fact the only reason why she preys on you is because you were her years ago...shes jealous that your face is beautiful..she is jealous that you have a home to call your own...shes jealous because you have someone that loves you..even with the fights and fusses. pain is jealous because she is a inadequate object that cannot fullfill desire..lust..or love..

sweat acts as a second skin in ways it should not..it penetrates the existing beings of flesh....sweat in this existance is placed through the adrenaline rush that happens when we are emotional..you feel like your tears and your sweat are one because its a over abundance of the two..the more you cry..the more you sweat..but truth be told..after its all over..doesnt it feel like the sweat excreted that pain you was feelin more than the tears did? the tears washed away the inital sting but it left that scar in your heart...

tears.pain.sweat. the true definition.